So are you done?
Its around 730am. I’m all ready to get going to work. And yet I’m sitting at home on my laptop punching this note.
Had a strange dream last night. The few particles of it still remain in the consciousness. There’s a glass wall. There are doctors in their gear, face masks and all trying to revive me. I dreamed I’m dying. One nurse asks the doctor to massage my heart a bit longer and see if it would help. Perhaps in the dream my heart has stopped and the doctors are trying to revive it.
Then I see my soul. There is fear. The soul does not want to be dragged upwards in the beam of light. There’s a lot of fear. Dread and fear. My soul is trying desperately to stay away from the beam. It looks up and imagines… my soul imagines that at the other end of the beam up in the sky, there are three Gods sitting next to each other and the soul shall face them.
The Gods are huge, the size of a 100 floor building in front of which the soul looks like an ant. The largeness of the size perhaps adds to the fear. The soul imagines the Gods questioning the soul… my soul… me…
“What good did you do? What bad did you do?”
The soul in its fear starts crying and shaking…
I wake up and there is this horrible depression. What good have I done so far? and How much bad have I added in this depreciating world of goodness?
Sipping tea now. Decide to stay at home. The dream raises another question. Have I done all that I would like to do in this life?
Would I have been as fearful, if I had accomplished all, done all…
A day to reorganize and set into motion a few things that I’ve been avoiding for long…
June 19th, 2008 at 8:14 pm
A very beautiful post.. it’s set me thinking.
June 20th, 2008 at 6:27 pm
Oz,
Reminds me of the movie ‘All that Jazz’……a must see if you haven’t seen it. Roy Scheider was brilliant. The movie is one of my all time favorites, The lead character goes through these 5 phases of grief — anger, denial, bargaining, depression and acceptance when he learns that death is imminent.
Not that any of this applies to you……
Have a pleasant weekend, spend some quality time with wifey.
June 23rd, 2008 at 1:10 am
It is said that if you dream of death, it means you have a long and rich life waiting for you - but you are facing decisions or events that will change your current lifestyle.
Nicely written
June 26th, 2008 at 12:02 pm
@Ritu, By that logic i should have beaten bill gates by now ,i have just read the second line also,guess i also have to take some decisions and stop reading blogs on web