Desi Train

That hot ginger, black pepper tea sure does do something to your system. I have this habit of making one as soon as I’m back home from work. So yesterday I’m sipping this delicious tea… all hand made mind you… no cut open 2 minute microwave thingy here…

So yeah I’m having this delicious tea sitting on my lazyboy… which by the way reminds me that I’ve received a few emails inquiring what a lazyboy looks like… so here it is…

That’s my recliner - all folded up. The back can tilt at almost 180 degrees and the foot rest can be brought up to be almost parallel to the floor… This is my chair… Dekho magar pyaar se

So anyway my ginger tea and the lazy boy chair plus a few Sedona method audio through my DAP. I’m relaxed.

And then it happened. To explain what did… lets do this analogy… you know you do something for years together… or perhaps listen to statements or words or text - for years… but then one fine day you truly realize the true meaning behind those words or what exactly the words meant… yeah that moment when you slap your forehead and go “SHIT… I’m such an idiot… I can’t believe I didn’t realize this for so long…”

Yeah that moment… if that moment hasn’t yet come to you for anything in what you do… then don’t worry… they may come sooner or later… until then… please enjoy the life of an idiot… nah just kidding…

But the point of revelation was this… In those tapes from the Sedona Method, Hale talks of this “wanting” for change which usually locks the the very thing in… that very thing you wanted to change… and tragically because of this thing you feel sad, depressed or frustrated…

So there is this exercise… where he first asks you to “let go of wanting to change it”… you’ll know what to do in case you have read the book or heard the tapes… but that’s not the point…

The point was the exercise and the revelation…

So the first part is to “let go of WANTING to change it”

and then immediately after that Hale says to “let go of WANTING to HOLD ON TO IT”

Now I religiously followed the exercise for over a year. Let go of wanting to change it… let go of wanting to hold on to it. In between all this Hale would give his explanations…. snore… move on…

And then sitting on the Lazyboy with my Ginger-BlackPepper Tea… a question popped in my head…

WHAT THE HELL DOES HE MEAN BY “LET GO OF WANTING TO HOLD ON TO IT?”

Now remember it’s THAT moment… when curtains will rise…

Pat comes the answer - You are Holding on to the very Thing “YOU WANT TO CHANGE”

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Brain is can be your worst enemy. So it shot this question out of my head “Why the hell would I hold on to the thing I want to change? Nah… this is not correct… why would I try to hold on to the very thing I dislike…”

Moment of Revelation… So pat comes another reply “Fear… that if you lose the very thing you want to change… you’ll be in deep shit”

Another mis-belief chapter closed.

It was crystal clear to me from then on.

Let’s try to explain this moment of revelation to you… which many of you, may yourselves be facing… and may not have realized it as yet.

Let’s take an example.

You have a job. You hate it. You hate every moment of it. You WANT to change your job. Lets stretch it a bit further. You want to change the very industry you work in. For example… you may be an architect… hate it… want to do something different.

Now let’s move to part one of the exercise.

“LET GO OF WANTING TO CHANGE IT”

According to the Sedona method… Wanting equates to “Lack of” by the brain. Wanting makes it harder to get it… some more yada yada yada philosophy… so you let go of the WANTING TO CHANGE IT.

The key is now to release your emotional bindings on the other side of the coin - the “WANTING TO HOLD ON TO IT”

Now you know you hate your job. You want a change. But that very thought or WANT, creates a fear, that “atleast I have this job” and “I should not lose it” - “Until I find an appropriate change”… what this does is creates fear of losing your job, a job you already hate. The fear draws pictures in your head of the worst case scenario… you have lost your job, kicked out of the house, you are sitting on the streets in torn office wear, your briefcase all torn and rugged now acts as a coin collector, where oz tosses in a quarter as he passes by… you tearfully cry out “oz!!! do you remember me… I was a great fan of Desi Train and PFC and would visit your site often”… oz turns back and smiles at you… “Sorry I don’t recognize you… I’m getting late to posting my latest sexcapades with Jeanna Jameson and Jeanna Fine on DT… Bye”…

SHIT… Your body shivers or trembles a bit… you get a hold on to that feeling suppress it and move on… that whole nervous giving thought lasts for a fraction of a second… you’ve walked over it.

But it’s still there… and now is the cause of you “HOLDING ON TO YOUR JOB”

BINGO!

FedEx the next scotch to oz… you can sign a “Thank you oz” on the label of the bottle… ;)

So I’m gonna go back to the exercise… I think I’m close to changing what I would like and am able to let go of holding on to what I would like to change… my 1992 VIP underwear. Hopefully next week you’ll be reading a post that I written wearing a fresh pair of underwears… it’s never too late… I tell ya!

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